Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Photographs.

Minnie and Maxie are my companions today as the children are off investing in their respective talents. Bo is here, and Emma is here. This is what Bo said about strings camp: "Mama? What if I didn't like going to strings camp? Ha. Like I suppose there is anyway you could not like it. Imagine, Mama, if you got to play your violin ALL day and then eat lunch and Subway or Chick-fil-a!"
Bo and Emma before we left for the ballet. I really love this picture of Emma. Bo really likes wearing a suit. No, seriously. He does.

Do you like my wreath? It's a fun little DIY project forwarded to me from my friend Kimmy. The instructions are here. Super cool, and super easy!
I've been pretty crafty these days. It's nice for a change. I made this pillow for my bed:



Here's a close up of the wreath...This was made with old books that had been sprayed with glimmer mist, rather than paint.
I do have some other projects in the works...but I don't want certain persons who read this blog and are having a baby to see!!!

PS. Should I open an etsy store? Sell pillows? or something else? Sigh. I just don't know.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Shadowfeet


Sometimes life feels, well, oxymoronic. (if I just made that word up, you are very welcome.)

Like there are two currents.

The madness, sometimes good, sometimes bad, of a busy life, keeping occupied with the daily: the children fussing, the dishes and the cooking, the waking and sleeping, and the getting through the grey spots that threaten my otherwise happy little life.

and

The steady pace of eternity, that goes on, like breathing even when I am not aware, or (keep your shirt on) don't care. It's hard to pursuit....to exercise....to be diligent....oh heavens. I don't even know how to put it any more. "Find the Lord" is so overused in my experience. I think I'm gonna have to resort back to the old-school "pray" because it just sounds the truest right now.

Anyway. It's hard to pray to God, Whose corporate nature is so very real, when I'm alone. I really think that is the gist of it. It's not an excuse. It's not even a very good reason. It's just habit. Habit of practice and a habit of thinking.

Alan Knox posted about finding a community, and it got me to thinking. Am I actually ready to make the sacrifices that are needed to pursuit the Lord in a group setting? Really? . It just takes SO long, and it really is hard. I know the payoff is worth it. I KNOW it is.

The answer is "no" for right now. Like I said earlier, I am still learning to pray. Still learning to remember "the kind intention of His will" during the tricky bits of each day. It's like I've forgotten Language, and I'm learning, little by little, to speak and to listen. I'm ok with this.

Maybe when my ears and my mouth work better, the Lord will bring along some folks with whom I can listen and sing. I look forward to that day, but for now, I will wait.